Saying Goodbye!!

Today (07/08/2018) has to be one of the most emotionally draining days I have experienced, and as I write this I still can’t quite comprehend what has happened.

Over the weekend my baby girl Bonnie (a dog) developed breathing difficulties and upon speaking to vets found it could be heart disease, now Bonnie dog was no young pup, she was nearly 15, and for a Cocker Spaniel that a good run, but it doesn’t make today any easier.

See she had been struggling to sleep and was breathless, she had gone off her food which wasn’t like her at all. she struggled to manage the stairs and had a glazed look on her face at times, so we knew something was wrong, we just didn’t realise how fast things could deteriorate, we made the decision to not have her in pain and when her quality of life was being affected then we would do what is best for her.

So after she had collapsed this morning, we felt it was time as did she by the looks of her, so the call was made to the vets to do the ‘thing’, turns out she had other plans, as I carried her to the car things really went south, I held her in her bed as tight and as close as I could so she knew she wasn’t alone, and in the moments it took my wife to remove the car seats for the car I could feel my beautiful little girl take her final breaths, It was the most horrible thing I have ever been a party to, that moment her body went limp, breathing stopped and eyes never opened again, the one solace I took was that she was no longer in pain and had left being held and not on a cold clinical table, but it doesn’t stop from hurting.

Who knew a PET would hold such a special place in your heart! but bonnie had gone from being my PET  to being MY LITTLE GIRL! a member of my family that I am never going to see again, as I write this I feel the tears stream down my face still not accepting the truth that she is gone forever. never again will I be getting Bonnie cuddles, never again will I have those big beautiful brown eyes staring at me for food, for walks, for treats, what I do have though are the memories she has left us with and the knowledge that she was loved by everyone that met her even my two young boys are missing her, telling them was super hard as they don’t know a life with out her.

but as life goes on her memory will remain and that space she took in my life . . . in my heart will forever belong to Bonnie dog.

DADDY LOVES YOU BABY GIRL!!! HAVE FUN WITH ROSIE